the Trust Issue

I have always had a problem with trusting people. People have let me down, never kept their promises, said cruel words and acted very unbecoming. So when the love of my life came along, I didn't know how to trust that he would do the things he said.

I poured my heart out to him, and he stayed, he didn't run away or ignore my problems/issues, which surprised me. He took me as I was. He accepted me for who I was. He forgave me for the things I had done. I put my trust in him, and he never let me down; never has, never will.

I didn't know how to follow him without losing my way. I had to learn to let him lead me.

Trust. The word 'trust' means,

-reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of aperson or thing; confidence.

-to have trust or confidence in; rely or depend on.

-to believe.

-to expect confidently; hope

Trust is a five letter word that has taken me nearly 20 years to understand. I still have trouble trusting people, even my closest friends don't know my secrets, my thoughts, my dreams and aspirations.

For me, it's a daily thing- trusting him. Every day I have to renew my trust in him. Trust that he'll help me through the day, be there for me, comfort me, listen to all my complaints and worries without passing judgment on me. I have to trust in his love. Trust that he'll ALWAYS be there for me, even when I don't think he'll be.

It all comes down to trust. Trust that he'll catch me when I fall...